Disconnect (9.5.2019)

As you know, my cell phone died on Monday around 1 PM. The screen went black, and it proceeded to flash the apple symbol for days. There was no way to revive it; no chance of recovery.

Initially, I panicked. How would I wake up in the morning without using the alarm? I wouldn't be able to receive emails, text messages or phone calls. How would I connect with the outside world? What about social media? How would I know what the weather will be like? And no access to Apple Music or Spotify? The horror!

I'm not going to lie, it has been extremely difficult. I have caught myself wondering, "How do I do this without my phone?" multiple times. I legitimately did not go to the gym on Tuesday, because I could not listen to music! But it has also been really great. Randomly, I will realize that I haven't heard a single buzz from a text or email in hours. I have had moments where I've realized how calm this has allowed me to feel. I went to the beach and read a book instead of listening to music or a podcast. I have been more focused on the "in the moment" instead of what's ahead.

​I am definitely not prepared to totally go off the grid, but the death of my phone has served as a not so gentle reminder of the importance of distancing myself from that constant connection (and distraction) device. It has prompted me to think more about my own self care and what changes I should make moving forward. I have also been reminded that not everything is urgent and requires and immediate response.